I think I'm Starting to Understand

With the overwhelming amount of negative media in relationship to what real women actually look like, it's hard to know who you're supposed to be and how you're supposed to handle it.  For years, I've been trying to conform to a "norm" that doesn't exist, an image of someone that can't possibly see the light of day, or even come to find someone to love her.  Hell, even now, I'm having a hard time coming up with the words I want to use to express myself, partly because I suppose I still have a few issues with all of it.  I love me, but part of me doesn't.

I'm sharing the following photos because I feel I need to express myself, in ways that words can't.
Please feel free to comment and share, but please do not steal.  If you plan on using my photos, please link back to me.

Curves are beautiful.  There is no denying that.  Curves on a woman show that she is physically capable in carrying life within her.  They show that she is a woman.

Camera angles can be deceiving.  Yes, I do have curves, but they're in all of the wrong places.

As you can see, I'm still not quite comfortable sharing myself with the world, and that's something that should happen in time.  For now, only one person is able to see what is on the other side of that steamy glass.

I can be sassy and sultry.  It's just that I'm not able to do it all of the time.  For me, I guess, it's a step to finally loving me for who I am, and understanding what I really mean when I say I want someone to love me the way I exist... You can't love someone unless you're really in love and comfortable with yourself.

I've tried sharing these before, and have been met with harsh criticism.  Heather at Fat Girl Posing has also had some issues, but she's more of a role model than a victim.  Much like her, I want my photos to give someone hope that they can be who they want to be, regardless of what they look like.

Until then, I suppose I'm still on that journey of self-acceptance.  I'm not going to limit myself to saying, "until he tells me X" or "until I hear Y".  It has to start now.  It has to start today, and I have to understand that if I really want to change the perception I give people, then I need to start with me.